I’ve been in love with this guy for 8 years I’ve never told him even tho I’m sure he knows just like I know that he could never love me no matter how long I wait stick around he doesn’t think I’m good enough for him he would never say this but I feel it and I know he cares on some level and I think he hate his self for that.. Why I don’t know I’m pretty I’m smart hard working no kids have my own car I’ve pretty much always had my s*** somewhat together when compared to others in my age range .. Hell I’m doing better then him and he’s 4+ years older then me to be honest he isn’t good enough for me .. I know I can do better I have in every aspect but they heart want what the heart wants. I’ve never truly express my feelings toward him to anyone throughout these 8 years he’s hurt me multiple times and multiple ways and I get mad and we won’t speak for a while but then I miss him.. And for the life of me I can’t understand how I miss someone who just constantly down play our relationship and disrespects me as a person.. He’s always trying to put me down and I’m always uplifting him .. I don’t want to be in a relationship with him (remember I’m smart) lol but I just want to know why I love him so much? I can’t seem to shake him for 8 years the thought of him makes me smile the sight of him just uplift my sprit .. I just hope one day he realizes what he had in me.. What could have been and that he understands that my Intensions with him has always been pure in my actions led by my heart .. For some reason I just feel like I need his approval I need for him to see me as a good strong woman Ugh well just needed to get that out its funny because he could read this right now and wouldn’t realize it was me talking about him…