God, how did I end up with the craziest in-laws? Literally in terms of mentally and religiosity–they’re crazy and they’re driving me ape s*** crazy too. It’s a good thing we’ve got our own place kind of away from both of them to give us some space or I’d be bat s*** crazy or worse than them too. Grrr, people and their freakin’ religions and spirituality. No body cares about what religion you practice but you and your ignorant followers. Quite imposing your religious (and outright DELUSIONAL) views onto others! Please…give me the strength I need to stay SANE.
like, You can be really so useless and helpless. I am so tired of always having to be the one taking care of matters, following up with things to make sure it’s being taken care of in a timely fashion, defending why I’m tired when I’m also working 10 hour days so on my day “off”, I can take our kids to their appointments. Not to mention working a small part time job on the side. Oh wait, the house doesn’t clean itself nor do the laundry just magically get done honey. And just because you do it once in a while, it doesn’t make you the “know it all” to start lecturing me and accusing me of “never doing it”. Remember where you came from and who taught you. Remember before having kids and working two jobs, I was able to balance it better but what do you have to say for yourself? I don’t ever rub it in your face or mention to you that I’m the breadwinner (making almost 20g more than you not including my part time job) but I never use that as grounds to have to do less and treat you like s***. You get to sleep uninterrupted throughout each night and you lack to see or understand that our son wakes me at least once a night for breastfeeding/not being able to sleep. You wonder why I’m tired and yet lack empathy or any ability to show me compassion but slight me with your immature comments. Not everything is a freakin’ competition or each person has to do “50/50”. In a marriage, there are times we each need to do more or less. It’s hard for me to want to be nice to you when I feel like I get very little in return but snide/smart a** comments. And yes, I realize this is a vicious cycle because when I’m sure when I’m not nice, that also makes you not nice in simple terms. I just wished you understood my needs as I do yours. I wish you could be there emotionally for me. It’s not all about you. I know everything about what you do a work and what you like, enjoy, heck I buy you all your clothes. Yet, I don’t remember the last time you bought me anything (non-food related) that was you venturing on your own out of your own thoughtfulness. The only time you’re nice is when you want something from me. You’re not a teenager anymore and nor do you live with your parents anymore. Please grow the F*ck up and quit acting so immature. When someone tells you that you need to stop and you’re starting to annoy her/him, please stop! It’s not that hard. Grrrr, this is a very negative vent but I need this so I can get it out and now find the positives in you and our relationship so I can continue to find the will and energy to continue giving and doing. *sighs*