I am s******* frustrated, and I have a boyfriend. We don’t have s** that often, and when we do, it is amazing. At this point, I CRAVE him. It is unfortunate that we don’t live together, on our own, because I know he doesn’t like to have s** when my brothers or Mom are home. I get it. But don’t you want me? Don’t you need me like I need you? We were alone in my house for almost 5 days this past week and we didn’t have s**. I didn’t ask, because lately every time I’ve wanted to you have rejected me, so I haven’t even asked you lately because that hurts more than anything. Seriously, in ever other aspect you are perfect. We spend every evening together, work out together, you’re the best at texting, and you never let me down, but this… this has to change.

This morning, I didn’t have work until 11am, so I made pancakes and cut us fruit. As I walked in, you were on your laptop on that silly site you like to go on, top secret whatever. We ate, mostly in peace, and then you closed your laptop and basically went to sleep again. I was trying to nudge you to get your attention, but after so many attempts recently to tell you how badly I’ve wanted you, and you’ve rejected me, I kinda stopped trying. Do you not like s**? You’re smaller in size, but that doesn’t make me feel any less pleasure from you. And I hope that’s not the issue we are having. You turn me on immensely and I feel like I don’t turn you on, or I only do when “youre in the mood”. Maybe I slightly am an addict? I’ve been watching so much p*** lately, because I’ve been so frustrated. I mean, I think I am s*** enough at least for you to f*** me once a week. I guess I am just spoiled as all hell because with my ex we would sometimes have s** twice a day and now its like nothing.

So, this morning, I was getting ready for work, you were turning over and I was STARING at him. He said, not in a mean way, “what do ya want?!” I said YOU! and he goes “whaaa?” I said- “S**. I want to have s** with you so badly, I am dying” and Suddenly I felt this anxiousness leave my body. He said “okay, but not now”. And I left it alone, did my makeup, and he fell asleep, so I sat at my desk and then he threw a pillow at me. I was sure he was going to f*** me at that point, but nope. Not even a caress from him. Nothing. Just him being grumpy in the morning.

We left and got coffee together& he dropped me to work and here I am..a flustered mess. Help me.