You’re tearing me apart. You betrayed me so horribly I didn’t think I would survive. But I gave you another chance, because of our family. And now, you are wonderful. You do everything you should and are a whole new, happy person. I can’t imagine life without you because you are my best friend and I depend upon you for so much. And yet, part of me can’t forgive. Part of me hates you and wishes you would burn for what you did and wants to scream at you to never put your filthy hands on me again. How can I live with these two polar opposites? You’ve now successfully become the man you should have been. And yet, now, after two years and a beautiful son, I can’t keep the hate back. I don’t want you. I don’t love you. I’m not attracted to you. And I’m happier alone. I’m so afraid. I don’t know what to do.
