I’m ftm transgender and struggling with anxiety disorder and sometimes I wish I could make myself throw up instead of just eating more food. Anxiety makes me feel nauseated so I eat to try and soothe the feeling away.
I wish I had an eating disorder that would make me look thin instead of fat. I know it’s a bad, terrible thing, but all these elements (And a bunch of others) are so intertwined and I don’t know how to get rid of any of it. I’m in therapy, I have meds, I have a great career, partner, and all. But I can’t have the mind and body I want and it’s slowly killing me.