I hate life because I always feel like I’m a worthless p************ that doesn’t deserve everything. I’m pretty sure all of my friends are tired of me and that I’m the less loved in the family. No one cares about me and nobody takes the time to truly know me. But I understand them I look so f****** bad and I must be annoying I guess. Without my best friend I’d probably wouldn’t be there. Should I just disappear anyway cause nobody cares? Every time I’m interested in someone they turn away. Am I that f****** bad ? Do I deserve all of this? Ah I wish I wasn’t there at the moment. I wish I could sleep forever and disappeart without anyone knowing. I’ll probably end my life soon cause nobody needs me anyway and I just feel numb all the time. I’m so young, I’m a waste of youth and life. But I’m also a waste of space and energy to anyone I meet. Gosh, I hate myself so f****** much. Does everyone hate me the same way I hate myself? I’ll never know and that’s probably better that way. I just need a f****** reason, a f****** purpose. My own best friends doesnt ever care. If she doesn’t, who will? yeah, of course, no one. I know I’ll make people sad If I kill myself but only because they’ll feel bad about themselves because they did nothing. They won’t even be sad that I’m gone, that I won’t be there to talk to them and do all the things I do for them. Cause I try my hardest to please everyone and to be perfect but my best isnt enough apparently. I just need someone who will love me. A family member, a friend, a lover, any f****** one. Please I need this so f****** much. But yeah who could like an ugly p************ like me ? I just f****** cant anymore.
Thanks to all the f****** assholes who made me that way. No I don’t trust anyone. How could I ? When I kill myself I hope all the regrets kill you on the inside too.
