My ex boyfriend had s** with me. It wasn’t technically consensual. I am currently in a relationship but I don’t want to tell my boyfriend because I’m scared of what I may do. Even though I hate my ex with every fiber of my being I still can’t find the strength to completely force him out of my life. I have already cheated on my boyfriend and I feel horrible. Especially because I had been leading said ex on. And then it just kinda spiraled out of control and it hurt my confidence and is affecting me in other negative ways.