I am 23 yr old guy, and had a Ukrainian girlfriend from Crimea. We were in relationship till last year. She broke up with me because for weeks i didnt talk to her in the middle of relationship. Even i regret it , but I didnt talk to anyone during that period. I was searching for a job which can make the relationship possible. Seriously speaking I wanted take the relationship further ahead. So i decided to find a job which can land us in same city for the years to come. Finally I got a job and when I returned to her to give her surprise. Instead a surprise was waiting for me. She said she doesn’t feel me anymore. I still thought she will come back even after break up . After we break up we were still close friends and used to discuss everything with each other. After some months she found her new love and it destroyed me. It ruined my health day by day too. Just before our last talk, I even cursed her. I dont know why i did but i cursed her , may be because i was badly hurt. Suddenly I felt all my sacrifices went in vain. Soon after cursing her i realized what big mistake i have done. The Ukraine’s instability caused more guilt inside me. Everyday i feel guilty. When i wake up, when am walking … everytime i feel it. For past 1 year I pray in every temple I pass by, I pray for her well being. But i dont have any way to find whether she is in good condition or not.

I am guilty what i did to her. And now that every door is closed, I cant even know how is she ? her family ? where are they staying ? I dont know anything. I am concerned about the family. They were my mom and dad too. My guilt has no end….. May be its a price I need to pay …..