i am capable of killing someone. i have killed 2 cats and 3 dogs in my lifetime since i was 9. no one has ever found out. i found different ways of disposing of their bodies. i try to stop myself but i have this urge to do it again, but this time to a human, especially this one s*** at a bar near the town i live. i want to r*** her, slit her throat, mutilate her body and dump her body in a river, just like i did with those animals. i get a thrill when doing it. i really need help but i enjoy it so much