so there was this guy i liked 2/3 years ago in my freshman year. i was 15. he was a senior and 18. at first, i would constantly say hi to him whenever i saw him in the band room. i stood or sat around him while he was playing the piano and i would just admire him. he never talked to me, maybe said hi a couple times. he eventually started ignoring me and i hated it. i started following him around the school during lunch. i held his arm once and walked around with him until his friend pulled me away from him. i hugged him tightly and he clearly struggled for me to let go. whenever i talked to him after that, he would tell me to f*** off and occasionally called me a dumbass. i guess i was one, since i was cutting myself over a guy who would never like me back in a million years after all the s*** i did to him. i eventually realized that what i did was disgusting and i would’ve deserved it if he told on me. i really want to apologize to him but i know he won’t forgive me and he probably forgot all about me after he graduated anyway.