I think I’m attracted to b*** because of my dad he never s******* abuaed me or anything but was verbally abusive toward me he made me feel like I couldn’t do anything right I second guess myself a lot and am quick to apologize for any and everything because I feel I’m in the wrong in a way b*** makes sense to me because the only time my dad seemed satisfied with me was when I was being punished and it hurts but makes me happy in a way because I just want him to be pleased with me and it feels like that’s the only way to make it happen thing is I have a desire to carry this pattern on and that’s where the b*** comes in but in a way I feel it helps me cope