I was a competitive figure skater, it was my passion, but quit in 2011. I had high hopes, but it all crashed down in fall of 2010 when my coach, who i was very close to, suddenly stopped. No notice, rang her phone off the hook, nothing. I did eventually get in contact with her that January, enough to know that she was too sick to continue coaching for now. Ok, i can deal with that, but i was in sebenth grade at the time and was being bullied. Had no friends at all and the replacement coach wasn’t as good. Not that any coach could compare, but my skating turned to crap with her. That June, i quit after learning that the replacement coach wouldn’t be coming to my rink anymore and would be staying down in Maryland. There were no other coaches and my skating was crap anyway, so i just threw in the towel. But i never forgot my first coach, the coach i had my whole skating career, starting from first grade to the beginning of seventh.
I don’t know, i just thought we were closer than that. But the past three years i texted her off and on about five times. I haven’t spoken to her since the last time i took a lesson from her. I attempted to call her just recently despite my horrible anxiety and got no answer, so i left a message. No reply still.
Just this morning, i had a dream about finally meeting her after so long. it wasn’t a “fake-looking” dream, it was very real and very possible and very much what i want. I just wish there was some way that i could talk to her and see her again. I wish there was some form of contact. it’s been years and lately i haven’t been ableto stop thinking about her and my past and everything that’s happened to me.