You won’t stop showing up in my dreams, and lately you have been on my mind way too much. I mean, it only makes sense- you were my world for 7 years. You were a part of my life for a long time. I was so young, and naive to understand that it wasn’t real love. We, for one, were most of that time, 300 miles away from one another. With one year together, which then, it still wasn’t perfect. I just have this urge to text you, to find some peace of mind, but I won’t give in. I left you, and I’m sorry but you didn’t deserve me any longer. What gives, anyway, you finally got a cell phone after we were done? Yeah, 7 years with this guy in my life and all he had was his house phone and texting me from his….my iPod touch that I gave to him. Then came a point where we were unable to talk on the phone due to long distance charges. S***- a part of me seriously hates you, and I won’t say that a part of me does not love you, because you were my first love, but all you put me through, I’m so glad I had the strength to move on. I just wish you would stop harassing me in my dreams. Not that anything badly has happened in my dreams but I just don’t want you there. It really has been bothering me that you’ve been on my mind so much. Not romantically at all, just, you. Just you being there. I want it to stop. I know eventually it will, I just can’t seem to understand why now, after 10 months of being with somebody else. He is all you never were. I know you now that you’ve realized a lot of things and have possibly changed. I guess it’s the way things ended, maybe that’s why you’re on my mind. I can’t help what I dream, but you made me feel like I had to prove something to you and that is the moment I decided to leave. I was never “good enough” and you know what, that’s fine. You gave me all the better reasons to leave and I could not be happier I did.