The only person’s eyes I can stare into are my own and even then, it feels like I’m looking at a stranger. The only thing familiar about my eyes are the color and I think I’m dead inside. Life is supposed to be happy, I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I have friends and a family who love me but something’s missing and my childhood was such a disturbing mess that I don’t think I’ll ever find what it is. I’m too FUCKED UP to hold onto a relationship. No one likes a girlfriend with problems.
