I am currently with my boyfriend who has cheated on me and passed some STIs to me. The reason he cheated was because there were times I needed time to myself to work out my emotions, which he silently didn’t approve of. But instead of telling me about his apprehension, he slept around behind my back and I only found out when I showed symptoms of STIs. This happened last year and I am still with him now because I’m always giving him the benefit of a doubt that I am his first love and I should allow him to make mistakes and learn. Recently, we had a really bad quarrel and he assumed we were no longer together. When we were reconciling, he confessed that he slept with 2 other random people and had unprotected i**********. This really hurt me because I really wished that what happened last year would teach him to be more responsible, but I was proven wrong. Even after scolding him and hitting him for being so insensitive and irresponsible, I couldn’t find the strength in me to leave him and so, we’re still together. I want this relationship to work but this mental and emotional torture seems too much to bear sometimes. I get dreams where I see him and other people guys acting intimately and I get it ALMOST EVERYDAY. I don’t know where is this going. One thing I do know, is that I do love him…

For some background information, I am 24 and he’s 29. We’re a gay couple. I’ve had some relationships before and they were all faithful to me. He has never been in a relationship before and has been promiscuous all his life until he met me.

I really wish someone can comment on this. I feel so alone sometimes because nobody I know have actually put themselves through such a circumstance before and therefore, wouldn’t understand what I’m going through…