I don’t think I’m really gonna be over youcompletely.
Even though we left off on bad terms, sometimes I hope you don’t resent me.
Even though I’m in a relationship, you come to mind every now and then and I just feel so frustrated and sad that we couldn’t work out. That I didn’t do my part to make us work out.
Last night, someone knocked on my door. When I looked through the peep hole, I saw a guy walking to his car. I didn’t know what he wanted so I just watched through the hole. He sat there for a good 30 seconds then he drove away.
I texted my boyfriend and told him what just happened because I was kinda alarmed.
Instead, he took it the wrong way and thought an ex was trying to visit me.
And the first person that came to mind was you. That whole evening, I stayed in the living room watching TV, waiting if that person would come back and hoping that it was you.
Then I had a dream last night, it felt so real. I was hanging out with my sisters and you saw me. You approached me as if you’ve been looking for me and you felt relieved to find me. You rushed towards me and gave me a this tight hug; it felt so real, even now I can still feel your body pressed up against mine as we both sigh in relief. You had the same scent from when we last saw each other, that same smile. You make me so weak and flustered and I keep asking myself why I ever let go of us.
You were on your way to go somewhere far and you wanted to see me before you left.
That’s all I can really remember. But I woke up with this heavy feeling of missing you. I don’t like how it feels. I have a boyfriend and I thought, I was convinced that I had moved on from you.
But I just have to let this out because I really miss you Adrian. I miss your voice, your stories, your laugh and everything else.
I want to contact you so bad, I still have your number, but I don’t want to ruin what I have now with my boyfriend.
I promised you I’d take you somewhere far away, where no one knows us.
I’m still holding onto that promise. I hope sometime in the future, I can do that for you. Even if we don’t get back together, I wanna fulfill my promise I made to you.
I really miss you, I doubt you’ll ever find this but I really do. I hope you don’t hate me. I wanna talk to you so bad.