I do not want to get too much into my life but it has not been easy ever since I came out of my moms vag….s*** has went wrong. My dad was an abusive b****** that would beat the s*** out of my mom and basically hated my f****** existance. To the numerous men she would try to get after that because for some f****** reason ppl under the water zodiac signs have to want relationships the most…and she constantly chose the wrong men due to her own daddy issues. But not only did she choose the wrong kind all of the time she always ended up getting special kinds like my step father and the father to my favorited sisters but i will get into them later. He was in his late thrirties and on roids like my dad would beat the f*** out of ppl….but this sick mother fucker had other things in mind….me a f****** 4 year old I do not want to gross you out with the details…….to this day I am afraid of sleeping in matresses because I was f****** violated in one…but that is ok It only took me a few times before my f****** mother decided it was ok to leave……and growing up I was always treated like a black sheep I became a meloncholy and disturbed young girl almost like a bi-racial version of wednsday adams…Yes that is another fun part I ended up moving to a racist area with a bunch of f****** biggot a** cunts…..(calm down girl! calm down) I heard it all…..”N*****……Fat husky c***!” I was treated like a monster people were afraid of me since I also dressed like I felt…like a creature of the night but that was my fault I had not discovered project run way…..and now….My mom died after years of heart break…….and never understanding her I finally did life is a fucked up game of chess and we are all the pawns unless we find away to sneak off the chess board the game is never over. I ended up moving after my favorite half sisters ended up taking all of her belongings because the get everything even when she was alive she treated me last in every aspect all I ever wanted was a mother’s love and I could not even get that…….F***! Sorry I slipped………but I deceided to move out of the house were she died an was left behind with one of her amazing picks a creepy boyfriend who would hit on me idk maybe our family was cursed we are part japanese our ghosts are brutal…..(the grudge). But anyways……….I left everything behind eventhough I am the oldest and she did not have a will but its ok once agian I f****** deserve nothing. And now I am staying with a “friend” who only cares about d*** after getting laid so ladies if you get a good close friend who says I do not like men and all of this s*** do not even bother with that c***…..and the main reason why I am here her f****** sadistic family they think no one has it hard the daughter is irresponsible and so f****** ungrateful takes things that do not f****** belong to her has these two f****** demon children which makes me want to go up to every chick and sew their vaginas shut…..she has her own f****** apartment that she does not have to pay for yet still at this house I can never get any f****** sleep or privacy because my friend is going through some mental s*** due to a recently traumatizing experience which is fine but after awhile in the end of the day its not my f****** problem……..now that i think about it I still have it worse yet I am treated like s***…..This b**** is babied when I had to f****** deal with my abuse and the bullying and even an attempt of suicide I was all alone…..my mom did nothing for me she did not give a s***…..I am sleeping on the floor in a small storage room yet when i f****** try to help out and clean the c*** of a mother is such a f****** dramatic ungrateful b**** she has this weird animosity towards me I think she has some wierd lesbian relationship with her daughter or something I need help IF THERE IS ANYONE READING THIS AND WANTS TO TALK PLEASE I DO NOT WANT TO END UP IN PRISON! She is such a spiteful c*** always has something to say just to push my buttons for no f****** reason…….idk what to do I have even prayed to the devil for help and yet the c*** still stands…….I have prayed to god for help yet the b**** still stands……I just might make her go on her knees when I chop her f****** limbs off…….