My wife has a s***** kink (sadomasochism) that she and I both knew about before we married. I wasn’t “into” it really, but I love her, and so I threw myself into giving her what she loved. We have been married for 10 years now, and her kink has become permanently wired into my own s** drive.

My favorite part of s** is oral. (giving and receiving) She refuses to try it, saying it “grosses her out”. I have never cheated on her, never looked outside of our marriage, and never even considered seeking anything other than her.

But after 10 years of giving her what she wants, and never getting what I want in return, the temptation to just go find someone to do it for me is becoming greater than I can manage.