Falling in love for the first time was the most amazing thing ever, 3 years flew by and I had wonderful memories. I found someone I could really trust, a best friend, someone who I could talk about stupid stuff with and someone that I could talk about serious things with, someone who would sing me to sleep and dance around the kitchen with me while the food was burning, someone who picked out all of the red sour patch kids for me because those were my favorite. Someone who understood that it angered me that I didn’t have all of the answers to life. But when we had to have a distance relationship your love for me lessened, and that hurt me so bad. You wanted to break up because you said you didn’t feel it in your heart anymore and you weren’t giving me everything I deserved. I wonder every night what your doing and if you’re happy. I saw you the other night and we were talking I swear I saw something in your eyes, maybe saw isn’t even the right word… I felt it. I know we talked after that and you told me that you still were attracted to me and would always care about me but I had to move on. The thing that hurts me the most is that I feel like I am unworthy of love. I really put my whole heart into us and when I said I loved you it wasn’t just something that I felt that day, it was a promise that I would keep feeling that way, and I thought that is what you meant by it too. Moving on is hard when the first time still feels like it isn’t over.