I work at an advertising firm with a guy I really, really like despite and in spite of myself. I can’t figure him out. He’s rude and straight-forward and not given to sugar-coating anything he says. He’s made me feel like crap once or twice by saying things without considering how it would make me, or anyone, feel. He’s completely selfless and kind and always doing things for everyone around him, me included. One moment he’s rebuking me for not catching up fast enough on work, the next he’s bringing me back a sandwich from the deli when he goes to lunch. One minute he won’t even look at me when he talks, the next I catch him giving me a once-over from head to toe and holding eye-contact a second longer before looking away. It’s driving me crazy. He’s a junior manager. He’s single, I’m single. I’m not dreaming of a future with wedding bands and three little brown-haired, green-eyed kids. Just of throwing each other against walls, floors,in showers and on beds, going at it till we’re nearly passed out. Twice or thrice. In one night.
I just want to get him out of my head. I don’t know what to do.