I cannot and will not talk to another male (unless they are a server, attendant, check out person, or someone that requires my feed back). If am approached in public by a regular person, I feel like I need to get away from them to not confuse them and or lead them on because I am taken. I have been for about 5-6 years now.
I realize no male ever just wants to be friends, and I am constantly reminded of it. Now because I avoid them so much I get very caught off guard when a man talks to me for small chat. I get very nervous. Sometimes I can’t even bring myself to look them in the eyes, and other times I will ‘literally’ run away…
I avoid men/male to begin with like I said because I am taken. I have no need for a fling, or casual flirting. Even if it is just a drink, or just talking while waiting, I just feel like I shouldn’t. “Don’t talk to them, you will say something and they will understand it as something else, maybe something to lead them on. I do not try, I am just very friendly when I speak and sometimes people take it wrong. I don’t want to have to be rude, or have to run away. I just do not want people to approach me.
I’m starting to worry that I am actually afraid of any male other than my significant other. 🙁 Why do I feel like they’re out to get me, hurt me, humiliate me?