I gave in to temptation and entered a situation knowing full well it would lead me down the road of sin. To follow this road, I lied to my parents and I continue to lie to them for the shame of my actions. I took a g****** a date and spoke smoothly and entertainingly, again aware of where my actions would take us. We went somewhere quiet and kissed and undressed. I allowed her, prompted her, to perform oral s** on me; somehow I derived no pleasure from it. For several minutes I sat there and felt no pleasure because on some level I knew that I had broken the Holy Covenant; I have sinned and do not have the courage to confess and accept my punishment. My prayers feel unanswered and I just want some way to repent. By failing to refuse her advances I not only lost my innocence, I stole her’s; I robbed some unknowing man of the right to a pure wife. My only solace is the disgust I feel in myself.