I’m standing at the corner of waste the rest of my life or become some new, unrecognizable soul. I have some good allies, but none to walk me through hell. I would rather be any of my friends. Her- I wish she knew her heart and friendship are more important to me than anything. Him- I wish he knew that just being there was all I need. I feel like it’s a hard-fought war just to get up and go through the day, because I have all but ruined my precious time here.