So.. i think I’m in love with my best friend. Which wouldn’t be a problem but for the fact that he is in a committed relationship, and just signed a year lease with his girlfriend. Also, I just got out of a committed relationship, so I know that my judgement isn’t the best currently but I know… i know without a shadow of a doubt that he really isn’t my type and the we would eventually destroy each other, but it doesn’t really change anything. I want him, more than I think I’ve wanted anything in a long time and i don’t know how long I’m going to be able to hold out. Just being around him improves my mood. I think a lot of the problem may stem from the fact that I know the desire isn’t one sided.. when I was still with my ex, we fucked around a couple of times, never taking it all the way. When I broke up with my ex I explained to him why I couldn’t go on with him.. that I had already fucked my own relationship and that I didn’t want to be a party to the death of his. If it came about it wasn’t going to be my fault. But it is so f****** hard, I just want to touch him… not even specifically in a s***** manner.