Look to clarify- I don’t NEED you. I just would appreciate you and be that much stronger with you in my fight. Look my Grandma would have turned 80 years old this July. I expect she would have cut through my b******* and cleared things up for me really quick like I expect you would have. Believe it or not I’m not stupid. I just… I get bogged down. I want to be the strongest ever. That’s what I f****** appreciate about you- it isn’t what you think… but if you can’t be that friend for me fine. I would like to think I could put a lot of wind in your sails, too, but maybe you don’t need an extra push. Just thought we could be great friends. So many people are so sensitive… quick to judge. I guess I judge them judging me though so maybe I’m no better. I just want to f****** win for awhile before I die, because I feel I have been under the weather for far too long. I’m better than that. Today will be the longest day ever.