That moment when you think someone else is pathetic, then you realize you’re in the same pathetic boat they’re in.
Living with aunt….one morning in the first week she had me play with myself in the shower, making me tell her in detail head to toe what i found desirable about her bare body. It was very intense. Afterward she sat me down for a long talk. She told me that as long as i remembered i could only look and not touch that she felt it was better that she be my focus when allowed to do it. I actually learned fairly quickly to always ask permission and thank her for allowing me to touch myself and for the love and guidance. She started sort of rationing me after the first week, morning shower with her was every day, but during the days she started weaning me off multiple epusodes of it because i would have to be able to make it through classes each day. She also let me do it at bedtime so that i managed to sleep without doing it all night. Her rule was that if i woke up wanting to then i would move from my bed to hers. She would hold me and spoon me and talk to me until i calmed down from the desperate urge.
To be contiued.
For her since im a f****** coward, I admire you. I know its rude to stare but i do. I dont even think you like girls, especially not me, but I think about you, and how you don’t know how to pronounce “consumption” or “irresponsibility”. I don’t know much else about you, except how you’re a grade below mine and that you have english 4th period. I hope you know that you’re beautiful don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
