I am in love with my sister in law. I dont want to be in love with her, but she is the one I have dremt of for the past 10 years . I dont want to hurt my wife. But I cant put her out of my mind. I need her like I need air. I have never told her or acted on it, but I yearn to be in the same room as her even though its torture. I try not to look at her, out of fear she will see the longing in my eyes. But I steal glimpses of her when ever I can. She probably thinks I am leering at her. She has no idea what she means to me. I remembrt every time i was with her in one way or another. I tried to get a job at her work just to be close to her. Once at a political rally I got to hold her hand. I could not sleep for 3 nights because her picture was all I could see in my mind everytime I closed my eyes. I have waited for 10 years for my feelimgs to derease but I still love her. I have loved her ever since I saw her in a coffee shop studying with my wife. I have loved her since she got her license. I do not want her to know, I do not want her to love me because I dont want her heart to ache if she loves me and I do not want to get crushed if she does not. She is the only one I want, and she is the only one I can never have.
