I’m an adult woman in my late 20s. I lie to this woman on a regular basis. I tell her she’s my best friend but in reality I’m so sick of her I could shut her out of my life and be so much happier. The problem is she freaks out even when I spend time with family or friends away from her (we are online friends, we have only met in person once, which I regret ever doing, but she has my address, phone number, and all emails, etc. she’s even fb friends with some of my family and friends ,I was a teenager when this friendship started and i was VERY stupid and trusting) , and I’m pretty sure if I cut her off she’ll threaten to kill herself, or stalk me, and cause all kinds of trouble for me. She’s very passive aggressive and I know she’s controlling me but I don’t know what to do about it. I suffer from major anxiety and I believe she takes advantage of that fact to keep me around. She doesn’t have any other friends and I know why. I find myself wishing she would die in an accident and leave me in peace, and that makes me feel so horrible. I just want to escape. I want to be able to live without feeling obligated to keep her happy. 🙁