I invited someone over knowing we were romantically interested in one another even though I have a boyfriend. He got over here and started touching me, and I told him no. he kissed me and started doing it again and I pushed his hand away. He took out his p**** and wanted to have s**. I trusted him, he said he wanted something real, that he was different, and so I let him use me. he left my house and blocked my facebook. I’ve just been saying it’s r*** because I did say no, but at the same time it feels like it was. The police told me it wasn’t r***. I wish it was so I could say it wasn’t my fault, but it was.