I have been working as a prostitute for the past 2 years.
I work out of hotels and motels, usually. I’ve lost track of how many men I’ve slept with, on average though, it’s 4 guys a day. I make almost 6K a week. Almost every man I’ve slept with is married with a family, sometimes I can’t shake the guilt. I go home to my family and act like I was just at the office, I kiss them with the mouth I just used to give blow jobs. I’ve started crying in the morning at random, it just all starts to come out and I can’t hold it in. I have a boyfriend, too. But, for some reason I am never satisfied with just having him lusting after me, I need to have lots of guys wanting me otherwise I feel awful about myself. I do dote on my boyfriend, I give him everything he wants I don’t want to lose him, I seriously need him. But then I still go out and give guys my number, f*** them, and s*** them? I am confused.
I’m a terrible person. I look in my mirror and all I see is a terrible, awful w****.