I’m a failure. And no one realizes it. I s*** at school, I’m ineligible. I can’t swim and swimming to me is life… This next week will mark the near end of the season. And I haven’t swam in one meet because I’m a slacker. A procrastinator. And I hate myself for putting myself through this. All I want to do is swim and this is my last highschool season and after that I leave for basic training for the navy. All I want is my senior year to go smoothly and not be a pile of s*** around every corner. It s**** knowing I won’t be passing enough to be eligible. But I’m trying. I just pray I tried hard enough…