I should probably just admit to myself at this point that I like him. And maybe I have since even before this all started. I think it would be nice to be able to have him to myself, but I know that probably wont happen considering our situations. Still, it’s a nice thought.

Until now, as far as I could tell, it was just attraction but I’ve been doubting that lately and finding myself actually caring about him more like I would with someone I had feelings for. It makes me sad to see how down he is on himself, because I really can’t see anything not to like about him. Yet he says he hates himself, puts himself down all the time, even says he wishes he could die sometimes. And his girlfriend is no help, she just puts him down even more and sometimes even physically hurts him when she doesn’t get her way. I’m not the only one that sees it, or that has mentioned how bad their relationship is. I really wish I could do something to help him, he doesn’t deserve that treatment or to feel so bad about himself all the time. Even if he never ended up with me, I still want to help him out of that abusive situation, but he’s so used to having her around I think he sacrifices his own well-being for the comfort of familiarity… I don’t know how I can help, or if I even can, but I want him to be happy and I really wish I could express how I feel to him. I know he only sees me as a friend, even if there is physical attraction, and that’s fine. But I still want him to know.