I told my mom that I was anxious about visiting her and staying overnight because it will mean spending time around my older sister, because I’m worried my sister will have an attitude with me. I feel horrible because I know it upset my mother to hear it, and it hurts her to know that my sister is the main reason I don’t visit.

And ‘have an attitude’ is really underplaying it. My sis is a complete b**** who is rarely EVER pleasant to ANYONE, doesn’t do anything around the house and just mooches off my mom, lazes around and watches television 24/7, doesn’t have a job and can’t seem to keep one. She’s a liar, a thief, and someone I don’t care for. I love her because she’s my sister and I wish she would straighten her life out, but I don’t want to interact with her if I don’t have to.

I decided to go stay the night with my mom because she needs some help around the house (and of COURSE my stupid, lazy excuse of a sister isn’t going to lift a damn finger) and it was my idea. I know my mom has been wanting me to come but I suggested this. And then I had to go and spill my guts about my anxiety.

Now I’m even MORE anxious. Ugh

I think maybe one reason is I really want to tell my sister off about what she’s doing, but I’ve always been afraid of her. Even when I KNOW I’m right and she’s wrong, she sticks so vehemently to her point of view and refuses so hard to be told otherwise, I end up feeling horrible when I try to talk to her about anything.