I’m very alone. I don’t let it show, I act like I’m happy being single but it really kills me.
This girl I was introduced to is everything I want. Gorgeous, blonde, artistic, intelligent and best of all into old cars. I can’t approach her though for two reasons.

1) If it where to work out, the more I fell for her the more I would push her away from me.
2) When it comes to a s** life, I’m not sure we would have one. I had a bad hookup a few months ago and I haven’t been right since. I don’t have a disease or anything, but ever since then I have been unable to be physically close to somebody without being extremely uncomfortable, to the point where I have to stop it or I’ll have an anxiety attack.
It wouldn’t be fair to her to have to deal with either of those things, and I can’t say “hey, i have some deeply rooted emotional damage wanna go get dinner sometime?”