Is life difficult or I am just simply not good enough to live it? Seriously, I feel so empty that I googled this site just to get things off my chest cause if used to have my ex-boyfriend to listen to me but then we broke up because my parents does not want me to have a relationship. I did not want us to break up but eventually we did. Now, I realized that me and my friends grew apart. I don’t have anyone to talk to.

I’ve been feeling so useless. I gained so much weight that I’m afraid to go anywhere hearing people tell me I’m a fat a** loser. I know I’m not supposed to listen to them but it hurts so much. Beside my waistline problem, I literally can’t do anything. I’m not smart or pretty like other people. The only thing I know about myself is that I’m an artist. But then the darkness I feel ruins the things I make with these hands.

I hope I can get out of this horror somehow.