Sometimes I really feel like killing myself….but I don’t WANT to. I am so tired and sick of all the crap going on in my life…sometimes I feel like an empty shell about it all but other times I feel like my feelings and emotions are magnified and I cry over a lot of stuff cuz it’s getting too much. F*****’ hormones are actin’ out. I don’t wanna die but I wanna be happy. I wanna go to Japan. Have friends I trust. Someone I love (not necessary) at least someone who can stand by my side through thick and thin. Not someone that faked for attention and acts like I’m never enough, or someone who ignores me because she felt like it, or someone who I’d open up to and then she goes off and tells my mom (my teacher 3 yrs ago) not a sister who was really close, until I realised she isn’t close and did a lot of s***. F*** this s***.