I guess many of you have heard/experienced stories like mine. But here goes.

I was a nerd. VERY smart. But during my under grad, I fell in love. She too was very much into me. It went on for 4 years. I screwed up my studies; grades went down. She went for higher studies, I got an average job. But I just barely passed my under grads. Her college was located 80 mi from where I stayed. I used to visit her college and meet her every weekend. It went fine for a year and I was happy with our relation. In fact, I thought it was better than ever. Then she confessed to be cheating on me since 8 months and that she feels very sorry. She said she wants to be like before. She said I was the best and nicest person in this world. And that I should forgive her. I did. But I could never trust her like before even though I tried my best not to doubt her. After a few months she broke up because she thought it wouldn’t work out. It was very heart breaking for me. When a nerd like me has a gf, I was over the moon; and when she left, it hurt just as much.

I tried to move on. I studied for GRE and scored pretty well. I applied for grad schools but was rejected in all 6 of them for which I had applied due to low under grad scores. I left my job because it began to s***. But I did not get another job.

Not one second passes without regretting what I had done with my life. People around me mock and humiliate me for ending up in this. My relatives, friends, everyone just enjoy as I suffer. I don’t blame them. That’s just how the world is.

I am applying for jobs everywhere I see an opportunity.Also, this year I am going to apply for grad schools again with a higher GRE score. I will not give up. I just need a miracle. A second chance in life to make things right again.