Hey baby. I miss you. I lost you. It hurts. You’re now in her arms and you’re happy. It’s ok I never took a chance I failed I lost you and it hurts because I fell in love. You’re the only one I have ever loved. You are my first love. Now I’m all empty, fucked up, lost. I don’t know how to feel towards love. It makes you feel like s*** but it’s amazing how it can make you feel so much towards a person and it’s what makes it beautiful, but it’s so painful. I just don’t know what to feel anymore, you’re not here and I want you but I can’t have you I have to move on but my heart doesn’t let me. You to me are perfect and no one comes close to being as good as you. With you’re flaws and fucked up habits I love you. This, what I feel, is not normal. I never cared about someone so much, me being the stubborn a** b**** that I am I fell too hard for you. I’m really cold hearted but you change that in me I don’t know how to explain it my heart says you’re the one but I just don’t know. Whenever our eyes met I felt an extremely strong connection, almost as if we could understand each other without even speaking and it was just so weird and those moments are the ones that don’t let me move on, your eyes, how you treated me, how you talked to me. Maybe this “us” will happen again, maybe it won’t. But I’m fucked up with a broken heart and I miss your b**** a** I really do. And I don’t know what to do.
