Ugh. I’ve had some trust issues for a long time. And then I got close to one girl and trusted her with everything, then I was betrayed in a way. We had a fight. I forgave her. She didnt change. I loved her so much I even thought I might love her more than a best friend…but now I just stay away from her. Cuz she made up some other stuff and I hate drama so I just avoided her. Now I have no close friends. I randomly hang out with everyone. I don’t belong to a certain clique. It doesn’t even make a difference if I’m here or not. It’s not that I don’t have much of a personality, in fact I have a really bad temper, but when it counts I’m just a bystander. I don’t get involved. I’m don’t have enemies but I don’t really have real friends. More like friend-classmates. And I am so sick and tired of not being able to actually be close to someone and talk to them. I don’t trust easily. I have family s*** too and I want to talk to someone about it. I only have one real friend who is my cousin. I trust her but not completely. I can’t risk telling her because I fear she might tell someone and it gets to my family.