When i was 27 i was thin blonding my hair and exercising regularly at a gym and weight loss clinic that i saved up for because i was sick of being fat and people rejecting me … i had gained weight from a size 10 at the age of 20 to a size 14 by 25 after being s******* assaulted by an uncle and bashed while studying at university and working part time, by 27 i changed my whole life around … going to child s***** support groups and did a newsreaders tv presenters course doing current affairs style reporting and was doing the rsl girl in a million quest fundraising for charity when i was raped by a married man and what i find strange is that still no nice young single man wanted to date me and go out with me the whole time… it does not make sense.

it feels like it has satanic and military connections of abuse that i am sick of when i have a right to have a boyfriend or husband and look beautiful when i wanted to be a pretty bride and feel respectable rather then being force to live like an APE !

all my dignity has been taken away from me with all my dreams. the pain of being treated like this for no reason has broken my spirit.
My sister had a need to steal ideas that are mine or friends or stars i like.

she even insisted she knew more about film study (in an arts/laws degree) eventhough i did the film course at university… joyce did the same thing to my father when he was running a radio school and business joyce insisted she knew more about radio then my father and more about business managment and politics and my father has been into politics for over 50 years he used to run branch meetings at our house and this joyce poorter constantly makes out she knows

signed catherine graham