it started as “i want to look a little better”. i was 134lbs, happy, but i always felt a little big. so, in january i started counting calories. at first it didn’t mean much, i still ate about 1900 a day. fast forward to march and i was barely getting 1000 a day. what’s funny is now im the skinniest ive ever been but i hate my body more than ever. im getting a bit better about eating. i stopped making myself throw up. but i still want to be skinny. i’m 115 and i still feel huge.