I don’t really know how to start this, but I feel like my s***** preferences are messed up. I like some really creepy s*** and I have no idea if it stems from something, or if I’m just a little different. I’m a young female and I’m into really dirty, demeaning ideas. I’ve always found myself attracted to the weirdest people. I can’t count how many crushes I’ve had on the strangest mother f****** people (fictional or non-fictional). I’m talking creepy/scary dudes. I don’t have very much s***** experience, but the thought of s***** situations being forced drives me crazy. That’s really the only kind of thing that turns me on. I just love the idea of someone choking me as a way to assert power. Not even a particularly attractive guy either, like some dirty, nasty, scummy guy or some s*** (I’m a sucker for villains and always have been). Just straight up scummy, brutal forced s**. The strangest thing is that i find myself attracted to psychopaths and actual crazy people. It makes me feel kinda dirty, but I can’t help it it’s so twisted! It’s hard trying to put so many thoguhts into text so it’s probably all a rant-y mess, but i hope you got the feel of what I was trying to say. I’ve never told anyone about it and I really wanted to get that off my chest!