I know you love me. You say it, your actions do too, you have supported me through everything in my life. And I’m leaving you. I’m lying, I’m telling you it’s because my family doesn’t like you–it’s not. It’s because I can’t commit. I need to leave this relationship, hookup with random guys, feel undervalued again. You gave me the most true, perfect love. And I’m rejecting it so I can f*** guys who don’t care about me. I’m so sorry. I wish I deserved you. I pray we end up together, even though I could never deserve a miracle like you. I want to see you at the end of a wedding aisle, I’m just scared. I secretly hope you wait for me, even though I know I don’t deserve waiting. You have been the best.