My parents died in a car cash when I was a baby leaving my grandparents with custody of me. I’m 21 now and moved back in shortly after grandpa passed.My grandma is very religious, and unfortunately for me she is starting to correctly suspect that I might be gay. To add in even more unfortunate circumstances, for the past several months grandma has insisted we attend church on a near daily basis. I have no problem with church, but I do have a problem with the new preacher, with whom I’ve developed a massive crush on. I don’t want to upset grandma and worry her further by not going to church. Although, If I do go I’m afraid people (mostly the preacher) might catch on to the fact that I have an awkward gay crush on the preacher. I feel like I’m stuck between a rock and a hard place.