I dated this guy I liked who didn’t really have much interest. He was more interested in my car but I figured we could get to know each other better. (LOL) I drove him around in my Mercedes every morning, bought him and his friend food regularly. But one thing I really regret doing is his f****** homework!!! He was on the brink of failing for the year, and I was remembering how he said we’d graduate together, walk the stage together and even attend the same college. But if he didn’t graduate, none of that would happen! And If I helped him graduate, he’d like me even more!!

Well he graduated.. dumped me after I was kicked out in the streets, annd moved away to another city about one hr away (It’s a party college city..). Even after all that, I still felt I wanted to be closer to him. I felt like he was really interested at first and then I just did something wrong that made him permanently mad towards me. So I kept at it.

Maybe it was because I wasn’t a virgin anymore. Maybe he just knew he could use me because I was so naive. I had never dated before. I never even held hands with someone. My first kiss was an accident in Mexico with a girl! You really expect me to know what I’m doing dating this person?

I was convinced I had to stay in his circle and in his area. Yeah, I’m pretty psycho with things like this. I ended up moving in with his best friend when I didn’t even really know him. And because I was now single and angry, I wanted to make my ex angry and or jealous. So I slept with his friend. At first my ex tried to play it cool that we were living together. His friend and I just claimed to be living together but nothing else. One morning my ex decided to show up early and found us sleeping in the same little futon together. He was so upset and didn’t know what to do so he just sat on me(hop sitting!) and didn’t let me move while harsh questioning his friend. Then he started saying things to me like ‘Oh you think your so cute in your little kimono. Are you naked underneath too?’ When he started directing his comments towards me, his friend started saying something in my defense. I just hid under the blankets as best I could. I know I had wanted that, and put myself in that situation but now that I was there I didn’t want anything to do with it. I just wanted them both to be happy at that point.

….. As I’m sitting here writing this i’m thinking. We should have just made it a t********. No wait! My ex is an a******!! He doesn’t deserve that! Eh and then it’s be a weird switch over… Because today, my ex’s friend is now my boyfriend of 5 years.

Oh and on a side note, I found out where he lived in that other city. (I told you, I go psycho on people I like~) I visited knowing that he lived there with another girl. I then smoked all his weed and almost threw up because I was so nervous and blown. Then I left. Hoe.