If God did make me. I want to ask god why did you make me the way you made me. I never felt beautiful, i am not naturally beautiful, i had to do soo much skincare and self care to look the way i look at 29 years old, i have never look better before, i knew i was an inverted traingle but never thought it was this bad that even my a** is inverted traingle. My upper body is bigger than my lower body and it looks so weird in T shirt and leggings, i can’t even wear bodycon dresses even though i am not fat, my body makes me look weird. I feel beautiful and better after all my life but again God had to make me realize i am ugly. I am so disappointed with God seriously how could he be so stingy with me, he gave me the worse parents, the worse friends, the worse environment, the worse schools, the worse adults, the worse childhood, the worse teenage, the worse 20s, the worse 1st marriage, the worse people i ever come across. Why is he doing this to me seriously. Why can’t he ever be a little good to me, atleast he could have made me a normal pretty woman, i am already pretty but why are my eyes asian but the ugliest one that not even eyeliner or eye makeup can be seen nor can i even wear eyelash because of it, flat cheekbones, high browbone, narrow forehead which makes my hairline so weird and my lower face looks bigger than my forehead and my entire head, my broad ugly shoulders, my thin arms, my big tummy that not even fats but just that i am an inverted triangle. God made me sooooooo ugly inside, its like i am nto feminine of woman enough, sometimes i feel scared someone might take me for a transgender. I hate that idea, i actually dont care if anybody does too but i love being feminine, i want to look feminine, i dont even feel my b*** when i walk because i have none, my back above my b*** is bigger than my actual b*** and it makes me crazy
