lately I’ve been trying to make myself throw up, idk really why. is this considered as self harm? sometimes I feel like I just need to get everything inside of me out (not just food – things I’ve done wrong, things I feel bad about). It feels like throwing up would be the best way to cleanse myself of what I’ve done wrong. I haven’t succeeded in actually throwing up, but I’m worried. Sometimes I think about cutting myself. when I’m not having these thought, i’m scared for myself, but when I am, im not thinking about the long run. but there’s still a side of me that barely comes out that says “what are you doing” ugh idk..