i have all these people telling me that i can do it
just do it
i have my father telling me “we can do so many things and be rich we just need an idea” and i see him do nothign as the days go by
he gets mad and dissappointed when my brothers and i do nothing at all
uninspired by his words
not caring
its not what we want to do
he wants a bussiness, he wants independecy of having a job adn rather a creation that will make him money
i don’t oubt it
but why just why do you need us to start it just do it
he looked at me today as if i was an empty shell my only exisitnce is to read manga and video games and only that
when he watces tv all day and night
when he stays home with no friends by his side
i don’t have a dream
i don’t even know what i want to do with my life people keep telling me it goes by so fasst what is even the point
i don’t want to marry and have babies, i want an adventure
i want to be alive and moving
but all i do is sit and glue my eyes to the computer screen and wait
what am i waiting for
i already graduated high school
i have about 2.300 cash to take me somewhere
theres nothing left to do here
what do i do
the worst part of all this is
that i will say everything i want to do and just shurg it off and sit back down to be the empty shell my dad believe me to be