I still constantly find myself lying to my family members and I hate it, I carry a lot of guilt also, my best friend is one of my greatest supporters and tries to help me with every problem that I have including this one, she has encouraged me to be more honest and open which I try so hard to be but it seems more difficult each and every time. This has caused problems for me not just physically but emotionally as well it has caused “others” to consider me a liar, and when I do tell the truth they don’t believe me I hate it! It bothers me so bad to the point sometimes I just want to scream because I can’t take it anymore, and no one really knows how much or how badly it bothers me. I also have a father that I’m not close to I really don’t think he gives two s—ts about me and sometimes I ask myself why bother even trying to be nice if it gets me nowhere in life. My mother pays more attention to animals than she does to me it’s really sad, I sometimes wonder if my attitude changed and I started really saying how I felt would I feel better or worse? but I probably won’t say anything because I’m too chicken to do so, which is a shame considering that I’m an adult.