I’ve been depressed these few years and all through those years I tried all my best to fight my depression but it will only hold it back for a short time. I never do drugs, try to commit suicide or hurt myself despite my depression getting worse each year cause I still care about my mom I do not want her to worry about me. But few months ago I really can’t hold it any more that I stopped talking to my friends. And two months ago my closed friend she started to distance herself with me and only talks to my other friend. I thought maybe I’ve done something wrong and tried to say sorry but she never give me a chance. It really hurts me and I started to cut myself. I regretted it that I hurt myself but the urge to hurt myself always come whenever I am depressed. I don’t know what I should do cause I am sure I will do it again. I do not want live like this. Nobody is wiling to help. They think that I am bothering them.